I have a lot of emotions that I'd really like to write about, I'd really like to share them with somebody. But I can't write them, a lot of them are not so nice. I've written about them one time in my diary, but then I flushed the page down the toilet because they're hateful. I'll just write this though, I love Italy so much. I love my family here. Most days I just wish I only had the life in Italy. I can't stand the thought of going home. I miss home so much sometimes. I miss my piano music. I miss my church. I miss always sleeping in the same bed. I miss cooking. But honestly, I am so happy aside from anything to do with Minnesota. I now feel like I have two lives that I have to pick between. The teenagers are so kind and caring over here. I'm going to miss that so much. I know when I get back to Minnesota, it'll be so nice to eat whatever I want, and look however I want. It'll be really nice to just relax and be myself and not feel out of place. But I know I'm really going to miss the friends I've made here so much. When I first arrived here, I thought "I wonder if I'm ever going to come back to Italy once I leave", now my thoughts have changed a little bit now I think "when am I going to come back". It's not an "if" thing anymore. I know, God willing, I will come back to Italy sometime.

I get a lot of people asking me to compare things, which is better? Italy? Or America? You can't make a comparison. They're both wonderful places. There's downsides of both Italy, and of America. 

Okay.. I'm done with feelings.. the rest of what I'm thinking, isn't blog or anyone appropriate.. I'm pretty sure I'll be keeping the thoughts in my head.. 

I don't write on my blog so much anymore, because really, I don't have so much to write about. I go over to my friend's houses. I eat pizza, lots of pizza. I do normal things. But they aren't exciting to write about, and this blog is suppose to be an exciting blog.

As probably everyone who I have on facebook or twitter knows, this last week was carnival. We had two days off school, and did crazy makeup and stuff.

 This is my makeup from Tuesday night.

 This is from a nearby town.

This is a photo from Saturday. Saturday I went with my friends to a disco type thing. We dressed up in costumes (Mine was what I'm wearing in the picture plus a mask) I didn't get a picture with my mask though, so this picture is gonna have to be good enough.

silly little problems

I really have no clue what to do as far as pictures, and posts goes. There's no point in bringing my computer upstairs, because it doesn't work. I don't like asking my host sister to let me use her computer all the time, especially for the quantity that I take pictures in, I don't want them to have to all be on her computer.

The other thing that stinks is my diary only has a few pages left, so the last few months I've only been writing every few weeks in it. I was always thinking that I have my blog, but now I don't really post as often because it's difficult to access.